"How you know fashion when you follow trends?”
A question many of us should ask ourselves, but don’t let the swift moment of clarity during your reflection obstruct the positive vibe IYE’s new record delivers.
Formerly one half of DosK, the artist IYE makes his introduction as a solo artist with critical impact. The heavily induced drum production, mastered by the prominent Cash Money AP goes hand in hand with the aggression that IYE serves up to his audience.
Wit Da Fist sets a mood for various settings and upon my initial listen I automatically envisioned being in the middle of a mosh pit filled with a mix of familiar and unfamiliar faces, locking arms and swaying side to side as we hype up one another. The scenario quickly transitioned like a comic book scene to me pushing through the last repetition on my final set during a workout session.
With such a versatile feel on this project I had to reach out to the source for verification as to what message and/or vibe he wanted his audience to retain:
Conversation w/ IYE
Esco♠️: First off love your aggression and wordplay on this new single; very compatible to the overall production and flow. What is the significance behind IYE?
IYE: Thanks I appreciate that. First off IYE is not an acronym for anything, it's pronounced like eye. The new generation of artist/fans seek indifference, so like I felt IYE was creative enough to understand but also differentiate from others and stand out. Simple as that.
Esco♠️: Which demographic are you attempting to reach on this record? Is it an audience similar to your previous fan base or are you looming towards reaching a wider variety as a solo artist?
IYE: The new era of Hip-Hop and or Rap would be my target audience. Wit Da Fist is for the tougher crowd; fans that are looking to get amped and express their love for good music. The evolution of Hip-Hop/Rap is clear as day and the ties between a variety of cultures are beginning to form thru the process. An example would be the increase in the number of caucasian kids listening to artist like 21 Savage; who creates music about experiences they cannot relate to but they want to feel connected so they tune in, in search for that correlation. A similar concept I went for while recording Wit Da Fist.
Esco♠️: I am very familiar with Cash Money A.P and his extensive catalog, how was it working on this type of production? I know DosK has worked on gritty beats before but what was the process like recording now that your on the path of a solo artist?
IYE: Cash Money A.P has a tempo I can f*ck with. Working solo was actually good. No sensor at all, with full control for the direction of the song. So that was A1 and I feel like this is my sound.
The overall message on this track is very apparent and you feel the excitement IYE had while developing his own sound. As I wrap up my own review on the record, I express the importance of utilizing his music in various activities you do or leisure time that you have. You’ll find this vibe I keep referring to. I leave you with multiple bars that caught my eye, and if you feel as though I missed an over the head line or just a combination of wordplay and flow. Feel free to drop a comment and elaborate.
“Veins cold got Ice in it | How ya heart pump with a knife in it |We don’t play games give you five shots | When you touchdown on my block..Ayo!”
“Eyes open when you walk | Red light got you hesitant |Graveyard just opened up | And they got room for more residents.”
“I aint playing with you on my GANG shit | Squad ride.. YEAH we dangerous | She gon suck on my dragonballs | If I hear you keep sayian (saying) shit.”
Approved by Esco♠️
I had every intention to hand the ball off but my committee of running backs keep fumbling. Was I expecting too much of others and not enough of myself? Was I going to the doctor for weight loss pills instead running laps? There's something about setting the table and ordering takeout that leaves you empty.
Patience to do the work and not be swayed when I don't see a change is something I've never had. I would try to divide my own dream in an attempt to subtract the amount of time it would take to get there. I mean it's mathematically correct but once again empty.
Six months ago I set a goal in my head. I would attain more patience and discipline to become the master of my vices rather than just the vessel. Before I continue I don't want to act like I sat down this one time and said you're going to do it Ryan and it was different. I've failed one million ways but I found one that works for me. That ice tray is always full, I can tell you that. If that's confusing you should read a couple blogs back.
If you don't have patience you tend to be anxious.
My anxiety has nearly dissipated. I feel freer in everyday. More decisive in my own plans and understanding of people Ive been juxtaposed to in life. I don't care for breaking news, sports or many of the things I felt defined me. I was impatient to change and anxious that if I let these things that created me go who would I be. The answer quite frankly is a better me.
I see that in my days. The smiles in the faces of the people I hold dearly. The increase of my production that has turned into raises, bonuses and the ability to be a mentor to other people. I feel limitless and what has motivated me even more is that my core group of friends seem to have ignited their own fires.
But oh this fire of mine
SOMETHING TO HOLD US
Talk about foreshadowing. I've wanted to make a difference in people's lives for longer than I can remember. I found some form of that in writing blog and poems. Connecting with like minded people to converse about ways to make a change. Reconnecting with close friends, to help each other move forward in life. All of this has led me to focus on experiences and how they are everything we are. I want to inspire people to fill their days with experiences like reading books that teach you about the world. Going to museums. Spending time to listen to each other. Ways to slow down and enjoy these moments. I plan to do my part by having community based events that I hope will plant seeds in the mind of the youth and wake up millennials.
None of this would be possible without the direct involvement of Kasheem, Jakay, Jakai, Naria, Stevens, Tanusha and Stanley. They've helped mold my dream and occasionally have served as railings when things look to be going down the gutter.
This is Something To Hold Us and I hope anyone willing to make this as beautiful and deserving for our multifaceted community reach out to help.
One of my favorite past times is listening to podcasts. I love learning about new things, having my perspective challenged and gaining new found insight on things I thought I knew everything about.
Here is a list of my favorite podcast and one of my favorite episodes from each.
(Podcast - Title of episode)
Invisibilia - Fear
Invisibilia is about all of the intangible things that shape human behaviour. Such as emotions, beliefs and expectations. Just to name a few. I've only listened to three podcast so far but it immediately turned out to be one of my favorites. They ask profound questions and give you their opinion, while interviewing a variety of people. You'll hear from; behavioral therapists, snake enthusiast, a blind man that feels he is no different than you and I, to a boy that was diagnosed as having a couple months to live in a vegetative state.
I could go on and on but I recommend you check out fear for yourself.
Tax Season - Gillie Da Kid
Tax is one of the most interesting podcasters I've heard. In the sense you can tell he has no idea what he's doing but he's so genuinely himself. Which is still entertaining. Tax has been in and out of the system and is currently in jail being tried for murder. Take that how you want. What I do know though is in this specific episode you hear an amazing story of survival and change of perception from Gillie Da Kid. A Philadelphia rap legend. He gained most of his recent fame for allegedly writing for Lil Wayne. (I think it's true) In this podcast you hear the struggle of a man that wants more but is so accustomed to negative things. The emotion in the last 2 mins is as raw as it gets.
Brilliant Idiots - All we got is us
This podcast is hosted by Charlamagne the god and Andrew Schulz. Out of all the podcast I listen to, this title fits them perfectly. They mainly address relevant newsworthy events while also giving their views on the state of society. You'll hear some great intuitive thoughts and other times you'll be dying of laughter. Their chemistry is truly unrivaled. The episode I recommended is about the struggle of the black community and what we can learn from other cultures to break habits and build actual cyclical wealth within a community.
TED: radio hour: Playing with perceptions
Hosted by Guy Roz this podcast takes various TED talks covering one subject but from different angles. This epsiode inspires me to be more understanding. To take in the factors that mold our habits and world views.
Revisionist History - My Little Hundred Million
If you don't know who Malcolm Gladwell is, I think this is a great way to become familiar with him. I've always heard of his books and he is on as a guest for an episode of The Brilliant Idiots. Though after listening to this season of Revisionist History I was left speechless, invigorated and in deep thought after each episode. I chose this specific episode because it highlights an aspect of charity that is so simple yet undermined. Charity is charity but in the full scope of helping people what is more effective. This might be the best podcast I have ever heard. EACH EPISODE is a must hear.
Stuff You Should Know - The Future of Renewable energy
Josh Clark and Charles "Chuck" Bryant use a variety of resources to gather facts and opinions on a variety of topics. They have episodes on how a flea circus works, fish fraud and one of my favorites considering they don't do guest, The future of renewable energy. They have Bill Gates on to discuss what he has been up to and some of his ideas on energy. One of my favorite anecdotes from this episode was the suppression of electric vehicles.
Dan Carlin's Hardcore History - The American Peril
In regard to relaying unbias information and I mean a lot of information, Dan Carlin does a great job. Taking historical events and providing context through the writing of past historians and political figures. He often asks you to question what you've been told because it can be easily be not what you expect. The fact is history is told by the victors so a lot of things can simply be wrong so take into account as many perspectives of the time.
If you have a chance I suggest you check out these podcast and if there are any that you think I should listen to please comment below.
I have no idea how to start this other than life has been absolutely amazing for me over the past month. I've been extremely consistent and progress peaks it head out more and more.
I had to take a break from giving advice because I wasn't taking enough of my own. Knowing better and not doing better is the essence of a fool. I will no longer allow myself to be so hypocritical. I said before that friends that inspire you is key. But there's an aspect that I left out. Friends that will be brutally honest with you despite your emotions operate in that same space.
When I took over this blog it was simply because Dosk believed in what I could do.
I never emphasized the meaning of Jakay, Jakai and Jamar's friendship. Some people criticize you because that's what they do. Very few people will reach into your hell to remind you, you don't belong there. In other words, don't talk about a problem if you're not going to spend any time offering solutions. Cut those type of people out of your life. Back to the meaning of this friendship.
We literally raised each other. Whatever I could show them I would and vice versa. From learning how to drive in an unregistered car without licenses, how to be unabashed in the face of denial, learning how to cook and filling apartments with smoke from burned meals. We even used to record skits and make compilations back in 2006. Life was simple and most decisions were made on a whim so we did a lot of living. Of course mistakes were also made that strained our relationship but we worked through a lot. There is no reason to pride yourself in being unforgiving. It only shows the pain you've felt and are still feeling.
Through all of our experiences we developed a support system that would bring us growth and momentum to continue forward. Unaware to the scarcity of such a bond, especially considering our environment. There is a severe lack of knowledge and too much disinformation in impoverished neighborhoods. We naturally see life as it is in front of us unaware that there is so much more. I have no intention of undermining how a lack of resources can inhibit growth but positive influences are like torrential rain and summer sun to seeds hidden beneath the concrete.
Influences matter more than friendships. You should choose your friends based on how they influence you. You can have a friend that shows you what it means to be compassionate but their insecurities prevent them from being decisive. Insecurities often prevent great situations from developing. That doesn't make them a bad friend and I believe we should all take the time out to help our friends overcome emotionally.
WE NEED TO SLOW DOWN.
Do not get stuck trying to help someone that doesn't want to do anything for themselves. Be aware of the hardships people can face and take into mind the mental cap placed on people subconsciously.
I was listening to The Brilliant Idiots podcast a couple days ago and there was an amazing analogy on the black experience in America. This applies to all groups of people that have been oppressed while trying to succeed within a schizophrenic society.
THE ELEPHANT IN THE FIRE
Imagine an elephant in all of its beauty and magnificence. If you were to take the elephant out of its natural environment and chain it to a pole since it was an infant. The elephant would grow into full form and still believe it is unable to break away from the chain. This mental cap will never allow the elephant to reach its potential. If a fire were to break out the elephant unaware of its tremendous strength would never be able to escape. It would die thinking it was trapped forever.
OPERATE AS IF
Many people develop insecurities subconsciously. Some occasionally realize that they have no grounds for the belief but deeply rooted emotions are one of the hardest things to change. Once you feel an emotion, whether it be passing in thought it is impossible to be unfelt.
You need to operate as if you are so much more than your own insecurities. I'm not going in depth on various ways to shed insecurities but there's something in faking it till you make it. Those negative emotions keep you from going outside a temporary separation from them is all you need. Tiny intervals of negative emotional separation that increase over time.
You can't fake the consistency, you will begin to truly feel like whatever it is you wanted. In turn become it. This ever winding path in life you will slip and fall. I know we all don't have friends that will help us out. Which is why I want each of us to be that person for our neighbors. I can't say it enough. I would not be who I am without the help of the people around me. To them I feel forever indebted.
Taking the time to consider how I can help others elevate is something I take pride in. Assuming what if they just need help getting back up or the push to take that first step. I will not help you financially though. So don't get ahead of yourself reading this.
I'm more than grateful for the life I have knowing it could be so much worse. Which is why I want to give back as much as I can despite how little I have. I've been working on a project I hope to launch soon. I will be creating a space dedicated to connecting people and documenting their process. A place you can become informed, inspired and entertained. How could we ever falter if we're collectively connected. We just have to see it.
I hope to create something to hold us...
"May we all continue to follow our dreams,
In whatever form they take as the times change"
Two... Two... Two.. TWO
Desi is how South Asian Americans identify and refer to one another. This applies to a group of people from India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, etc. You get the idea. We are "desis."
Now to address the real elephant in the room – the lack of seriousness given to mental health issues in desi culture. The stigma in South Asian families is we care about whether young adults are following the path the older, and by default "wiser," people have set out for them without allowing for push-back... and as a result of this, elders often are not able to see into the feelings and choices younger people want for themselves.
Someone very close to me, at the time that I was 7 and he was 17, was a victim of this forcefulness, to follow a path he did not want both personally and professionally. I remember when I first met him, when I stepped into New York City at 7 years old. He joyfully came to me handing over a large stuffed animal – a large rabbit with a red bow-tie, and spent the day showing me the first glances of the coolest city in the States. He was always a kind older kid I could go to whenever I needed someone to talk to. He had been down this road I was walking, and looked like he knew exactly how to find his way through it.
He had a girlfriend that a friend of a friend once recommended, one that would regularly bring him down. I don’t know the details of what happened, only what was said in passing when I was mentally aware enough to ask about what ever happened to him. It was a combination of financial and personal jabs towards him, that she supposedly threw on a daily basis. I always wonder what was the deciding factor, what was the 13th reason per say (relating this to the new show on Netflix that addresses mental health)? Was it the pressure of hiding how unhealthy his relationship really was from his family... in fear that he wouldn't be able to uphold the loyalty and dignity of a long-term relationship like how his parents had done? Or having been forced to follow an even unhealthier path into a career that would lead him to ultimate suffocation as he saw it?
If I was a bit older I keep thinking, would he have felt comfortable to call me? Could I have saved him from taking that last step off the edge? The work, the stress, the agony, which we are taught to swallow and cope with without seeking outside advice, can be a threat to our future. This robotic forcefulness … at what cost? When do you stop standing down and say enough is enough? There has to be a point. Where do we draw the line between healthy pressure and overkill? I wish I had more to say about a happier ending. The aches of leaving a surrounding full of familiar faces and coming to a whole new country where loneliness creeps up at you must have been confusing to him than what I saw. You hesitate to reach for a phone and call for help, or admit that you have a flaw, when everyone around you expects you to take it all in.
This is the underlying issue that has always been lingering in the culture… it is so hard to admit that there are cracks and breaks in your identification as a Desi. It doesn't mean you’re giving up the valor that comes with the culture and identification, just to say you're handling it all without showing even a little weakness.. There’s no shame in coming clean with the damage. There’s no point to immigrate for a freedom that you will never see if you are barricaded within your own mind. And I wish there was someone there that told you this. That told you not to give up.
I wish you could have had the now me to talk to, back then.
How much closer to your goal are you today than yesterday? Did you ever find the time you've been looking for to get your To-Do list done. Life seems to always get in the way. If only you could call out of work and just commit that one day to jump-starting the rest of your life.
Doubt, fear or lack of inspiration. There are countless things that get all of the credit for why people never follow their dream or are simply unable to complete a task in a timely manner. "Will this be as good I think I can make it?", "Can I even do this?" Or "This isn't even how I want to spend my life."
You can twist and turn to find the words that describe inhibiting emotions and use them as justification to your pitfalls, or you take your emotions and do some serious self reflection.
I'm not talking the basic I'm sad bc I'm overweight let me go to the gym reflection. Though changing the body is one of the greatest things you can do. I want to look at the things we do in our days and how each of them make us feel. Our lives' are compounds of the things we do.
What thoughts and actions consume your day create a cycle. Consider this moment as you read this blog. If this is your first time here what would you have been doing instead. I want you to pinpoint moments in your life. That cycles were broken and began. Don't be one of the dick heads that say damn how did I get here. You better know.
Before I started this blog I would think of countless ideas. Many of them are still in my head in hopes of execution. I would think and think looking for a sign that this is the idea I should commit to. Rather than taking that first step I let time pass, my inspiration dissipate and doubt sink in.
What would I be doing that let time pass. Simply entertaining people and activities that pushed back things that actually made me feel accomplished. A lot of talking and no execution. When did I become such a statue.
Cycle - Bad Habits and Good People
That moment for me was after graduation. Life changed a lot and I realized I was not nearly as prepared for life as I thought I was. The stress took a toll on me mentally and physically. I let myself be consumed by the thought of being better but not what it takes to be.
I soon realized that just wasn't my issue but people around me as well. We spoke about the same things and in turn did the same things. Forever distracted by the pleasurable things that numb the unmeasurable pain. Sports, Weed and big butts. Take it how you want.
My final year in college I spent a lot of time by myself and it helped me figure out where I wanted to go in life. For the first time I saw the Forrest while still being able to admire the details of the trees.
I don't know what are catalyst in your life but I firmly believe in energy that comes from various people. People in your life should bring you joy and make you feel like you can do anything. They should inspire you to take that daunting first step. At first careless if need be.
Break - Good Habits and Better People
In a past post I mentioned I would try going on faith much more often and focus my energy on singular goals. Minor victories that maintain morale are extremely important. I started with a simple task that would allow me to immediately see results as long as I was consistent. Once that task became something natural I would bring another task into the fold.
For me it was making sure my freezer had ice. A friend of mine suggested I also do 10 push ups a day. I mean what's 10 push ups and filling an ice tray. Whatever the mind makes it, is the correct answer. I could climb Mt. Everest but if I didn't do 10 push ups and fill that ice tray part of me felt like a failure.
As time progressed I found myself trying to complete these task as early as possible. The earlier I felt success, the better I would feel throughout the day.
Soon I was doing 50 push ups in a row and had a shit ton of ice. Which allowed me to add another task.
As I said we are compounds of our days. The next task I added would be weekly goals. Run at least four times and set a cap for my vices. If I were to not run at least four times I would still do push ups and fill the ice tray so morale was never completely lost.
You will see a difference in the people you attract into your life with whatever frequency you're vibrating at. Better habits brought positive people and diminished the effect negative people had on me.
You know who makes you happy
You know who inspires you
You know who brings you down
You know who conspires to
It's not I you fell in love with, it's the rush
That initial sensation from scalp to sole
Fuck intercourse's ability of rerouting our instincts and what we know
Subconsciously I got lost while inside you
And the risk factor I was blind to
In a rush to pin the tail on that .. wait.. let me retry boo
The condoms were by my side too, but the pleasures of it all had me face to face with negligence
Ready for war, embracing the impact behind the outcome with such elegance
Pills and potions .. the debateable notion, when labeled as the 2 percent ineffective
The pregnancy scare was said to be mild but resurrected, her "I think I'm late text" this time unexpected
Fast forward eleven months after that night of unsafe sex..
Was it worth it to forgo my usual brand of latex?
Forced to put who I was becoming on pause I began to float beyond wanderlust
Tears running down her eyes
Glancing down she's feeding to our baby from her breast
She's dazed thinkin about what we could've been
I've been praying more and more, realizing that I already should've been
Sleepless nights a mixture of stomach pains and exhaustion,
I guess this is the epitome of chasing the forbidden fruit without precaution.
Is this our purpose?
The chase to pursue our happiness was compromised, yes.. that we agree on
Piss stains near where I lay my head .. I wake up and I feel like I'm what the worlds already peed on
Could I look her in the eyes and speak that same lie about how things'll get better?
Take away our choice?...You should never!
I need love, I need life
I quit drugs every night
The occasional switch of vice
Has led me to starry lust filled nights
Accompanied by woman, I say I love
But jealously spite
What an incredulous plight
Toiling under the pressure
Of choosing love and longevity
Or prolonging the time of my life
To Be Continued....
I keep reigniting fires
Passion for novelty
Only new things inspire me
You always feel like the first time
Oh the irony
How we collectively got here is one of the most fascinating questions I ask myself. It's stimulating on so many levels. From the thought process of a nation, to the outliers that choose to think against the stream. You can't always* be sure of what exact occurrence caused history to shift from a desired outcome. News articles and books written during a specific time can provide context. There's even a perspective within the music. For example recently I made a playlist of various intros I'm a huge fan of. Link(IntroHaven)I needed to go through a plethora of albums to trigger my memory. Doing so I'm reminded of many classic songs. Such as Why by Jadakiss. For 4 minutes he finds himself asking why to many personal and worldly events. This song will mentally take you back to 2004. One line that stands out to me considering how much news prison reform has gotten lately, "Why they stop letting n*****s get degrees in jail". You can take that where you want because today I'm going to stay on task. How far have have we gotten after being freed. When I see low income families specifically black. I think of what it takes to move up to be a rung higher than your parents.
I hope to address what I believe to be a focal point in the history of African Americans whilst unveiling an unofficial rulebook that is followed generation after generation. You must set your mark beyond reach otherwise complacency will breed complacency. Where did newly freed slaves set their mark? Rightfully so the moon. After the American Civil War the Freedmen's Bureau was created with the intention to aide newly freed slaves during reconstruction though the task grew overwhelmingly complicated. Considering the vast amounts of freed men, women, children and unwavering stigma attached to PoC. Resources grew slim and America began shifting its focus after feeling that they have done enough. Urbanization and acquiring vast amounts of wealth occupied the agenda.
Booker T. Washington
After the failure of the Freedmen's Bureau hope wasn't destroyed simply lost. It showed it's face with the rise of Booker T Washington. Accompanied by a 3 point plan for Negro survival in America. They were 1. African Americans would submit to the political rule of the whites 2. They won't speak boisterously of inequality and it's implications 3. education would be funded by the north and focus on Common schooling and industrialization. These 3 points essentially made up the Atlanta Compromise.
W.E.B Du Bois
Another notable figure during the civil rights movement. Who initially supported Booker T. Washington and the Atlanta Compromise. Though after deep thought decided to oppose it for various reasons. The main reason for Du Bois' opposition is a condition these 3 points create.
The Triple Paradox
Du Bois describes the condition as such because this compromise settles an immediate issue of unrest for people to live in the times. Though in regard to longevity it lacks Black ascension.
First you submit to a justice system that promised to be fair but how could it possibly be.
At the time Courts were ruling favorably for whites. Which isn't news though the Freedmen's Bureau before failure attempted to right those wrongs by holding white people accountable for their crimes. These courts could not work because of the racial bias. The US Court system would consistently find black men guilty and the Freedmen's Bureau was where they went to find vindication.
Paradox 1 - Handing the the political responsibility of people that had to decide maybe we shouldn't have slaves.
Second you accept your social status in America. There are many unfortunate situations though clamoring about the lack of equality will not bring indemnity. Now let's keep in mind the north had to fight to free the slaves.
Paradox 2 - Acceptance of third (I know right, not even second) class citizenry.
Third and most importantly aspirations to be well educated. Booker T. Washington recommended that you focus on common schooling and garner skills that could be put to immediate use. The invention of the cotton gin and various machines pushed industrialization. There would be an influx of jobs. Focusing on common schools and trade skills money was reallocated from schools of higher education.
Paradox 3 - If there are less means to obtaining higher education. How will Men and Women ever see themselves truly refined.
"Is it possible, and probable, that nine millions of men can make effective progress in economic lines if they are deprived of political rights, made a servile caste, and allowed only a meagre chance for developing their exceptional men?" - Du Bois
I watch now as the dire need of political leaders to bring awareness to issues plaguing PoC is more evident. As we pray, tweet and riot to be accepted within society. For the lives of our youth wrongfully slain to be considered of value. Those that have committed said crimes to be held accountable. As the heads of the most prestigious HBCUs meet with Trump in hopes to obtain more funding. To be able to support more students.
This condition was created long ago and maintained by the man made negative correlation of skin complexion and ability.
How do we disconnect?
If you want to change the future you change the youth. Yet we live in a society that blames the youth. Constant articles about Millennials and their lack of (insert good trait here). I can't wait to see what they blame gen-Z for.
Frank Martin, the coach of the Kansas Jayhawks recently said a quote that went viral. "Kids haven't changed, We changed."
He elaborates on the fact kids know nothing and learn as they go. What are we holding them accountable for ? Are we arming them with the necessary knowledge, skills and habits.
I think black people as a whole need to redefine success. As much as we claim to have changed the definition of the word nigga. Why can't we alter how intelligence is viewed or the importance of sub communities that make up cities instead of beefing with people across town. With the mix of cultures I think now more than ever adults need to inspire kids to build within their communities. We need more mentors and stories of black success to create successors. As well as elevate their youthful desires. I've seen countless men and women have their potential stunted by distraction.
In order to truly change the youth and disconnect from the triple paradox we must hold ourselves to the example we hope to see them rise above. We don't leave it to kids to be a rung higher than their parents. We show them how the ladder was made.
We mustn't adapt after submission. We must never submit. So I leave you with a poem...
"They broke your great grandpa black boy
They freed his body and told him he couldn't vote
They broke your grandpa black boy
They gave him the ballot but kept his civil liberties on a rope
They broke your father black boy
They set a trap right outside his home
And when you awoke you were all alone
Black boy will they break you?"
A little background on me - daily I commute from Connecticut to New York for work and I meet a lot of commute friends or "train acquaintances" and we get into interesting discussions. And on one of my rides into the city an old acquaintance from high school and now a train friend - mentioned to me that I should incorporate more definitive words of encouragement to achieve my goals. We had got into a discussion about what I wanted to do in my personal life regarding something as simple as food choices - and what was stopping me.
I find myself unknowingly saying "hopefully, probably, God willingly" instead of just "I will." Hopefully I can give up that food, probably will next month. Why is that? Fear? Fear of what?
I found myself thinking about his advice and delving deep into myself on what is stopping me. And yes it really did start from a topic like food and yes it went further than that. Dont assume im going to give you a lecture on carrots vs donuts this whole time.
We are so binded to a society that leeches off fear... that if we really believe we can achieve these tasks we are going to jinx it because we are so acclimated to patterns that led to failure in the past that we let fear dictate how we get through it in the present.
We are binded to such a low class emotion which keeps us exactly in that class of thinking. The kind of fear like this keeps you down from ever achieving self empowerment to meet expectations you've set for yourself.
Now I'm not saying abandon fear of getting burned and jump right into a fire, but, metaphorically YES just a different kind of fire.
To bring yourself to a nobler level of thinking you must abandon the effect and address the root cause. Then you are truly free. Focus on the present not the past and future and think about what is causing you to have this doubt. Are you afraid of repetition?
Am I afraid that if I believe in myself I will not succeed like when I didn't get into that one program, or school, or course? If you find yourself living in the past go back to the root cause instead of letting the effect dictate how you will pan out in a future task.
If you are torn away from the future and past and you realize you could die tomorrow or lose your job or your family may abandon you - how strong is your level of self belief? Ask yourself is it possible to live completely submerged in the present both consciously and subconsciously and then address the fears you had once again.
Where like minds disagree and punctuation is overlooked