I had to take a step back to get a better picture of everything that was stressing me out. Tiered issues from; #45 and his evil henchmen rewriting history, how easily pseudoscience is taken serious, why my best habits keep escaping me, why single issue voters don't see the paradox, why Lebron asked for all this help for Kyrie to keep running Isolation plays, and I keep getting stuck at why does it seem like a group of oppressed people want their oppressors to say sorry and live in retribution rather than be supreme in their own right.
It's like the girl that will not stop arguing with her boyfriend despite how much he cheats and lies. At what point does she digress and ask herself why is her self-value so deeply rooted in something she has no control over.
Is it possible to be wronged, not be acknowledged and still be ok? How do we raise kids into adults with unwavering self confidence. Lacking the need of validation.
The girl that wants the pretty girls to like her back. The outcast trying to fit in. Race B and the need for race C's forgiveness. Men who need sex with a lot of women all have the same root issue. A lack of self love so they go looking for inner peace or better yet things that they consider valuable to in turn bring them value.
We need more informed and proactive parents. People seem to be emotionally aware of a policies affect on groups of people. Yet not an environments affects on children. There is a lot of information in this world and I don't think kids have the proper tools to filter through it. There has been a rise of anxiety and depression in teens and millennials. Time Magazine has a good article talking about teen depression being on the rise, pulling info from a pediatrics study.
Are the tools we have in place to help struggling kids good enough?
Are we over emphasizing decisions with the rise of options?
Oh So Tangential
Back to the topic
How do I decide between issues I care about. As I progress every day I struggle to find that balance. Wary that today's decision will put me in a box.
In reality most decisions don't matter. You can likely double back or make the foregone decision later in life. Weighing probable outcomes with minute differences is a waste of time. In an attempt to be more pragmatic I've considered religion. I used to read a childrens Bible every night and forcibly go to church on Sundays. It never stuck. I had too many why's go unanswered in my rebellious youth.
Lately I've turned to the adage. "Going on faith." I must keep moving along in the process regardless of outcomes. I'm not saying blindly take on life or undermining the opportunity to be the Author of your own story. Because that's what truly gives us purpose.
Don't over think on missed opportunities. Believe that the energy you emit will keep you on your path. Even if detours take you back to where you've already been.
I get triggered randomly and start to go off on tangents. There's a consistency I'm working on within myself in which I hope to find by going on faith. Trying to block out thoughts of multitasking and hope whatever I'm thinking/talking/doing in this instance will bring me peace. If not I complete it and move on. I thank all that take this journey to be a better me and commend those that have already set off on their own.
In a world catered to desire decide what you want.
Where like minds disagree and punctuation is overlooked